I probably have a really high blood sugar going on right now, which is not helping the fact that I just got an email with all the names, emails and colleges of the people I'll be in Thailand with!
It's kind of hard to grasp. I'm one step closer to knowing the reality I'll be experiencing in Thailand. There are 26 students, and at least 5 of them are male. I'm going to be meeting 25 new people, and by the end of 4 months, I'm going to know them all really well.
Though I've been running countless errands this summer, it's starting to come in to focus what I'm really going to have to bring in order to survive.
I've definitely all but completely checked out of my class and my internship, but I'm not emotionally ready to check out of my life here. I want to hang on to everything I have.
I wish I could remember how I felt at the beginning of college. I'm definitely not as nervous, but I feel like I should be. I will be able to bring almost no stuff, and I'll be in a new climate far away from everything. At least I have the familiarity of my mom's friend Tom, the knowledge that I can survive by myself to some extent, and the confidence that I've already done something like this before in starting college.
I'm really dizzy. Either I'm consumed with nerves or I can't tell if I'm low or high. Curse you diabetes. Please don't be shitty in Thailand.
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